Last goodbyes

Friday night we officially said goodbye to Red. I spent the morning assembling three bulletin boards full of photos that made me realize again what a very beautiful woman I spent the last quarter century with. I collected a pair of her soiled work gloves, some gardening tools and several garden hats to display by her urn. And I packed a small table she refinished and beautifully decorated to show off her artistic touch.

Speaking of the urn, I thought I was holding together remarkably well until I turned the corner into the room where her earthly remains were stored in that pretty lavender colored container. Sometimes the grief creeps up on you, and sometimes it’s a sucker punch. This was definitely the latter; I was unable to function for a few moments and had to sit down.

A comforting number of people were able to make it — if you didn’t, no worries, I understand — some from a great distance. We cried, we laughed, and mostly we remembered one very remarkable woman. I am not worthy of such a woman, but she took me into her life anyway, and I am forever blessed as a result.

Several of my friends have lost their own wives and came to support me because they have lived through the same nightmare. It was good to see them and I hope to see them again soon.

Tomorrow as I write this, and today as you read this,I begin living my “new normal.” I wonder what that will be like. It feels pretty empty right now, and it’s up to me to fill it back up. Onward and upward, I guess.

3 thoughts on “Last goodbyes

  1. Dear Warren, words fail me, but my heart hurts so for you. Lifting you up in prayer.

  2. All of your written descriptions of life and love are heart felt and a beautiful tribute to the love that the two of you shared for more than a quarter of a century! ❤️🙏🏻

  3. Warren,
    Just beautiful. So sorry I couldn’t be there…but glad Steve could. You have done honorable work over the last 6 months. May you be blessed by CJ’s memory and the knowledge you will meet again in Heaven. God bless you, love you,

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