Tap the wells of passion

Write what you love, the teacher says. Write what you know. That’s good advice as far as it goes.

Something can also be said about writing what you hate. Andrea Latzko went to the Great War and came back broken, physically, mentally and spiritually. His Men in War is harrowing a century later. Dalton Trumbo reached into his heart for his own hatred of war and pulled out Johnny Got His Gun.

Write about what terrifies you — all those horror tales and suspense novels and stories about living nightmares surely came from the depths of the author’s fright or some corner of her mind that is still hiding under the covers.

Find your greatest sadness and your deepest despair, put something to write with in your fingers — pen, pencil, keyboard, voice recorder — and open the tap.

Write what you don’t know, too. I didn’t know rocket science, but I wanted to write a space opera and I knew the power of the imagination is unlimited, so I wrote The Imaginary Bomb, a story where the rockets are fueled by imagination as a power source.

Write what raises your passion. Write what makes you angry or miserable or homicidal — better to pick up a pen than a weapon, better to commit figurative rather than literal.

Write from your deepest place, the place where everything wells up and you have to shout or run or scream because you’re so happy or furious or frustrated or defiant or rolling on the floor laughing.

The words need to come out so much you feel sick? Tap the wells and draw forth what ails you.

Page 100 of my 20th journal

I’m guessing, at this stage, that these journals won’t end up in some literary archive to be studied at length to see the original sources and inspirations of my greatest works. Their main contributions to literature, in fact, may be if the paper is recycled and becomes the journal of some truly great writer.

But now I’m exercising false modesty, because I am (perhaps) foolish enough to imagine that these little books may actually have some historic value someday, and while I wrote that bit about recycling the paper, in my heart of hearts I was hoping someone would someday write how one day Bluhm despaired that his stuff wasn’t going to live forever and little did he know that he would be remembered as blah blah blah et cetera.

I want to “live forever,” but I’ve never put in the work at the level of a Bradbury, writing a short story every week for most of his life, or a Maugham, meeting his appointment with inspiration every morning at 9 a.m. The best I have managed is little victories like setting time aside to journal four days in a row, or finally establishing a habit of blogging every day for more than 900 days. “Do the work.” Show up every day. Learn the craft. Apply the craft.

My career has been about creating disposable words, and I yearn to set some words down that instead will live forever. I want to write some words that move the heart and change the world for the better. (No delusions of grandeur there, right?) Every person has something to say. Everybody wants to change the world, so I am no different from everyone else, except in the sense that each and every one of us is different from everyone else. It’s a paradox. We’re exactly the same but unique, every one, God bless us.

Was that them, just now? Did I write the words that will live forever and change the world? You never know what those words could be, you just keep writing what moves you and see if they move anyone else, and one day, maybe, you will and they will.

Invocation of the Hack

Inspire me, O Muse, 
Reach into my heart and pull out a song,
Or a poem of great beauty and truth and such
That stirs the souls of all who hear
And lives forever,
Or at least a few minutes,
Or maybe long enough for the reader
To think, “Huh. That wasn’t too bad.”

(-2,425/24,230)