
When we stop asking questions and decide we know the answers, we stop growing, we stop learning, and we stop living. It’s not so scary not knowing. It’s an enormous universe, and arrogance would be required to conclude we’ve figured it out. I have been arrogant and I have been humble, and let me say humble feels more natural. Humble feels more honest. Humble feels more true. Jesus did not say, “Blessed are the arrogant.”
Did I climb out of bed and start the coffee before 4 a.m., just to write one sure honest paragraph? I look at what I’ve written so far, and a small voice wants to say, “That’ll do.” But we were not born to settle for what will do. We are better than “that’ll do.” When we approach our final destination, “That’ll do” won’t do.
Lord, help me live a life that’s more than “that will do.” Let me be able to say, “I did my best.” Laurels came to me, and I tried not to rest on them. I tired, and I may always question if I stopped to rest too soon. Could I have earned a brighter trophy if I ran a little faster or a little longer, or did I wring every last drop of sweat from my body?
What more could I do? What more can I do? Those are relevant questions. The road still lies ahead, the race is not done, the heart still beats, the lungs still fill and filter and empty.
Here in the stillness before dawn, the sleeping dog snoring over my shoulder, I feel so willing and I feel so daunted. My body is old and tires easily; I am trying to muster the discipline to maintain it in better condition. This earthly vessel could fail at any moment, but it has not yet. My mind could grow dull, or a stroke could fell it, but neither has happened yet.
I would tell my colleagues who were concerned about pending layoffs and other matters beyond our control, “The best you can do is the best you can do until you can’t.” I used to say “until they tell you that you can’t,” but they only had the power to say you can’t act in their name anymore. They don’t have the power to take away your ability or your skills.
The best I can do is the best I can do until I can’t. It’s hard to accept that a day will come when I can’t anymore, but that’s because that day has not yet come. We’ll see if I can accept it when that day comes; we like to believe we’ll accept it with grace, although we also like to believe we will rage against the dying of the light.
Now I hear the first birdsong of this morning; dawn is coming. Creation has matters to attend. Time to rise, shine and give God the glory. I feel assured that for one morning, rising before dawn, I accomplished what I set out to do in this space. Now the challenge is resist the impulse to set the rest of the day aside and say, “That’ll do.”


