A first of May

Oh my. Back on the back deck. The sun is beaming down, the weather app says it’s 55, the sky is blue, the grass is green. This will do nicely.

Five blackbirds are sitting in a tree — now six — maybe 25 feet away and above me. Perhaps they are plotting my demise a la Hitchcock? More likely they are wondering what I am and what this big structure is and why I need such a large home in the middle of their territory — not to mention why I am sitting so close to the platter filled with seed for them to eat?

Do they gain any solace from seeing that these two gentle creatures sitting by my side are clearly not afraid of me? Or are the dogs, like the birds, anxious that I feed them?

My preference is to sit here in the sun even though there is plenty of work to be done on spring cleaning and maintenance. My excuse-o-meter objects: “It’s the Sabbath. Rest, rest.” I accept that for now, but I’d better not still be making excuses Monday morning.

There is a proverb about sitting, folding one’s hands, and resulting poverty. I should heed that, too.

Way in the sky beyond the trees, two birds sail briefly through my field of vision. The first pelicans of the season? or simply gulls? The glimpse was too quick and distant to be sure.

The blackbirds are still gathered, checking me out. The sun on my face is comforting. Being outside is freeing. I take deeper breaths, I see farther, I hear more. A small plane drones overhead. The blackbirds chitter, a mourning dove coos somewhere. So this is rest. I like it.

Everybody’s doing a brand new dance

“The Stroll” was a sixties dance. Nowadays we have “The Scroll.” You stand or sit and stare at an LED light while moving your finger from the bottom to the top of the light. You look like a hypnotism subject because that’s what you are.

Do the Scroll, baby, Do the Scroll,
Keep on staring till you grow old,
Keep on staring till your burned eyes roll,
That’s how you do it, baby, Do the Scroll.

Give it a melody and a beat, and I think I have a hit.

Every Sunday morning, I get a notification from my iPhone that I spent 3 or 4 hours on my phone daily for the past week. I always scoff because how could I possibly have stared at that little screen for that length of time?

The notification always buzzes in at 9 a.m. sharp on Sunday — it buzzes rather than chimes because I’ve silenced the phone for church. I should probably take the buzz as my signal to start praying: “Lord, stop me from looking at this thing!!”

A leap into action

“Action is hope,” says the Ray Bradbury quote in the back of my desk. “At the end of the day, when you’ve done your work, you lie there and think, Well, I’ll be damned, I did this today. It doesn’t matter how good it is, or how bad — you did it.”

I had to clear a space on my desk to set down my journal and copy the quote. And in doing so, I found an action I will do today.

I resolved: I like this desk. I like sitting at it and using it. Before I do anything else, I will clear the junk away to expose the surface so I can use the desk again.

And I proceeded to clear the desk. And what do you know, that gave me hope.