Dabbling at the edges

Dean Wesley Smith noted the other day that a writer who commits to 1,000 words a day will generate 365,000 words, enough to compose nine 40,000-word novels in a year, which led me to my old Doc Savage style fantasies again. When I was young, I thought about emulating Lester Dent, the main force behind “Kenneth Robeson” who wrote a Doc Savage novel every month from 1933 to 1949. Dent served as Robeson for 159 of those novels, or about 10 a year, for 16 years.

And what would I write with my thousand words a day? I certainly would finish my Jeep Thompson adventures at last, but unless I commit to a monthly Jeep Thompson novel, I would need other stories.

Should I start by writing one novel — or finishing an old novel — in November, in honor of the apparently now-defunct National Novel Writing Month organization? 

Or should I follow my beloved Ray Bradbury, who wrote a short story every week for most of his life? (Why does 52 short stories in a year sound more doable than nine or ten novels??)

Why am I writing about writing when I could be writing?

There was this blank who blanked in a blank, and life was lovely, or perhaps a little unsettled but manageable, when something truly upsetting upset the apple cart. 

That seems like a good start. All I have to do is fill in the blanks and away we go.

Of course, just as I’m leaning into the novel, I inevitably get the urge to pick up my guitar and work on music.

If I wrote a song every day for a year, I would have 365 songs — enough for 26 14-song albums, or five more than I have produced in my entire life to date.

Of course, Theodore Sturgeon opined that 90 percent of everything is crap, but even if that’s true, I would still have 36 and a half decent songs to share.

And why am I writing about writing when I could be writing?

Could all of this indecision be a side effect of 50 years watching other people live their lives and writing what I saw? As a career reporter, I’m so used to watching that maybe I’m not sure how to live.

All of these thoughts, of course, spring from my daily journaling, which ostensibly should serve as a warm-up exercise to the actual writing that occurs after I finish. What happens most days, unfortunately or not, is that I get a blog post or two or three out of the session and the writing of fiction waits for another day. And so I fill in the blanks as follows:

There was this retired writer-editor who envisioned a life as an author and singer-songwriter, and life was lovely until one day he saw that he was only dabbling at the edges of his dream. Will he take the chance of doing what he always believed he wanted to do with the rest of his life? Or would he find an entirely new vision as he went along?

Push or pull

“I don’t want to do this anymore!!” he cried to no one in particular. “And you can’t make me!!!”

The parent gene looked over the scene, calm and bemused.

“Do you want to eat? Do you like living here?”

The tantrum paused. “Well, yeah.”

“Then you better keep doing what you’re doing.”

“But I don’t wanna!”

“What would you rather do?”

“I don’t know,” he said uncertainly.

“Do you want to play a game?”

“Yeah …”

“Do you want to watch TV?”

“OK …”

“Do you want to play your guitar?”

“Sure.”

“Do you want to clean the house?”

“Actually, yeah! It’s all dusty and full of dog hair and stuff.”

“And why don’t you do those things?”

“Well, first I have to finish writing in my journal.”

“And then you have 12 hours or more before bedtime. Why don’t you do those things?”

“I don’t know. I don’t wanna.”

“Ah, the ever-present dontwannas. The power of inertia is intense, isn’t it?

“I like sitting here.”

“Doing nothing.”

“What’s wrong with that?” he cried defiantly.

“Nothing in and of itself. Sometimes a body has to stop and rest.”

“Right!”

“But then you have to get up and do something, if you want a nice house and a good meal.”

“I suppose …”

“What will you do first?”

“Have another cup of coffee?”

“Seriously, now.”

“Well, the dog really wants to go for a walk.”

“What do YOU want to do?”

“Sit here and keep writing,” he laughed.

“Uh huh. You really are trapped in an inertia bubble. Give yourself a push, then report back to me.”

“What if I don’t feel like pushing?”

The parental gene sighed. “Then pull something. I don’t care. Just do something.”

“Fine.”

Miscellania

And here we are at the end of October, and the official Wisconsin Fall Color Report reports that our little paradise is already listed as “fading peak.” You can still get a taste of autumn fireworks if you get here within a few days. It IS almost November, don’t you know.

I got sucked in Monday night by the baseball game. I was ready to go to bed and saw that the game was tied in the 12th inning. “Well, this is interesting, I may as well watch to see how it ends.” Three hours later, when it did finally end in the 18th, I could console myself that I had watched a bit of baseball history.

But it left me blank on Tuesday when I sat down to write something for this space. It’s a little odd to still be talking about baseball and the World Series with November just three days away.

Leafing through my journal for inspiration, I find the notes I took in church not this past Sunday but Sunday last. This is why we write things down, to discover them later and think, “Yes! I meant to remember this.”

So, with credit to Pastor Cory Dahl and completely out of context:

• Stop going through the motions.

• Life is too precious to coast.

• Have God’s honor in mind in whatever you do.

Now, there are some things worth contemplating as I look at the autumn fireworks across the highway.