“Maybe I’ll …”
I frequently will preface a statement with “Today, maybe I’ll …” Maybe I’ll clean this room. Maybe I’ll give Dejah, my ancient golden retriever, a good brushing. Maybe I’ll write that Great American Novel. Clearly what I really mean to say is, “This is what I really ought to do, but I don’t want to.” Or at least that’s the net result at the end of the day.
Usually when I “suck it up” and push through the dontwannas, it wasn’t as great a chore as I feared, and I feel better for getting it done. The ferocity of my resistance often amazes me. “This will only take a minute or two” or “This is an obligation you assumed” are not as powerful as motivators as “I don’t wanna!”
I know I like to say it’s important to stay in touch with your inner child, but this part of childhood is ridiculous.
Maybe I’ll start reminding my inner child that we did grow up, once upon a time.
